I love photography. It has kept me alive for so long. Now I question it and me. Yet tomorrow I'm working for my agency and I'm in the lead. I'm in the lead because I'm willing to do the job for little, and let them have the images. Right now I work a part time gig that gives me some money but not very much. Yet it seems like my life is always a struggle. I try my best to do everything I can. Yet I constantly step on my own toes. When I get a break I do something wrong. The Athena awards went very well. So I didn't step on my own toes with that one.
I've been using this time to get in shape as well as I can. I work out at the Y and bike the greenway. I think I'm losing some weight. Trying to cut out sugar. Yet I am drawn to it. So I try to limit it. Drink Water and survive, hopefully without going into too much debt. I have shows I'm trying to do. My rock & roll show of my work from the 1970's. My Shelby Park older structure's show.
I keep telling myself I'll be ok. That is my mediation much of the time, is that I will do alright. How I will do that I don't know. But I keep pushing forward and trying to make it happen.
So hope is what I have and what push for.