I've taken up mediation in the last few years.  It helps me to stay in the moment.  Which I think of as very important.  For me it is important because I tend to not stay in the moment.  My mind wanders to the past or what I hope for the future.  I want to be here this past this time.  There is a theory that where depression resides in the brain is in the memory.  For me this is true.  All the feelings I have of not feeling good about myself reside in the memory and they come up when the situation or whatever triggers them.  With mediation and staying in the moment, I hope to not let those old feelings and emotions effect my current life so much. 

So this blog isn't about photography today.  It's about my inner life in some ways.  Depression is the monkey on my back.  Somehow that is also I think tied in to sugar.  Yes sugar.  I don't know how but it is.  When I give up sugar and don't have it.  It's like my brain is not racing as much.  When I give up sugar as a result of that I also give up caffine.  Because I give up on tea as a general rule.  I love sweet tea.  It feels a void in me but it is bad for me. 

So my life needs a change and I hope to do it.  We'll see but I hope.